And so, to wander further down this path of negativity that I find myself so frequently treading I repost a few lines that I penned last night for my mate, Stoner who was, at the time, feeling a bit black and expressing the same sentiments.
I was born
against my will
And yet I find
I’m living still
No feeling. Stealing
oxygen
Depressed expression
from my pen
I pretend. I dance. I sing.
But fuck I hate you
everything.
I came upon these challenging few words this morning via Deep Down at Godoggocafe and whilst trying to get my head around the concept of what Dad’s sins might actually taste like I borrowed a few words from it (and stole some likewise, unashamedly, from Shakespeare) and penned something which seems to be about my constant obsession with old age.
Silent exit
Forced retreat
From public life
Out on the street
No train to catch
No bag to pack
Baby, I ain’t
Welcome back
Fading light
A cold descent
A winter of my
Discontent
So light the fires
Chill the beers
Down in the basement
Of my fears
Tales from the mind of Kristina word prompt – Negotiate
I know that this all sounds bizarre
But trust me baby, I’m not far
I got a call from Zanzibar
Then had some issues with the car
Volcanoes out on Molokai
Pouring rain in old Versailles
Was waiting for my pants to dry
And didn’t see the time go by
An email came from Timbuktu
Tell me, what was I to do?
A cry for help – someone I knew
I had to fly to Kathmandu
I left my suit in Baltimore
Another made in Singapore
All organised by now, I’m sure
Won’t keep you waiting anymore
Don’t let these mishaps seal my fate
Baby, I’m just running late
At the altar you must wait
And there we can negotiate
Writing this in the hire car after returning from another flash visit to the US. Suffering from the depression that comes from a permanent dose of jet lag. Cyranny’s prompt struck a core.
Around the world I gallivant
Then home to you my confidante
Forgive me if I rave and rant
I am an angry little ant
For too long I rock and roll
Time zone changes take their toll
They’ve robbed me of my heart and soul
I’m falling deep into a hole
I did it all for me and you
But now I don’t know what to do
It’s left us both so sad and blue
The end is near, we know it’s true
